Peace to Everyone.

PIPPI LONGSTOCKING RITUAL

For the past couple of weeks I have been struggling with my "Pain Body" as Eckhart Tolle calls it in his books about the POWER OF NOW. The struggle, paradoxically is not to struggle with it!! My ability to experience the Presence of NOW has increased tremendously by looking within myself to see how I have REACTED to Life so much instead of LIVING IT. The PAIN BODY in my summation is EGO controlling ones life by feeding off of emotional vomit so to speak. I have been on a purge. My emetic has been what I thought was LOVE, yet I have seen that LOVE is not really what I have made it out to be, or else I would not have been in pain.

So much has happen, yet at the same time so little has transpired.

I have not heard back from Michael since before June's last post. Sadly I have accepted this as what is and am "MOVING ON" singing my theme song from Rascal Flats daily to help ease the pain. Expectations nearly killed the Scott I am, and successfully Killed the Scott I was,, which really is a good thing, even with the loss of contact with Michael. I did another Ritual about two weeks ago which has brought many changes to my life.

After wiping the slate of Expectations Clean, the sadness still lingered and I knew that I must somehow overcome myself by 'changing the Universe' again. So I proceeded to work on a healing self Transformative ritual which would lift me out of the mire of self pity. Damn, when I am good I am good.
The Ritual was really about Destroying my Ego involvement with the past situations and the heavy melancholy atmosphere that surrounded me at that moment. I wanted to step BACK into my Divinity and reclaim the Positive Person I know I really AM. I call it my Pippi Longstocking Ritual. Based on the premise that "IT IS ALL GOOD". and it IS.
I went out that night and bought new clothes for myself for the first time in forever and had decided that while shopping I would work on setting the mood for the ritual. I made my self be BRIGHT, CHEERFUL and LIGHT.. I pulled out the part of me I know to be Powerful in Presence of the Eternal NOW. I smiled at everyone who looked at me in that store, and met a beautiful woman who was shopping for her husband. We exchanged comments on each others choice of shirts and she told me I needed to go look at this one particular shirt that was a pale Lime Green color. I bought it knowing it was meant for me. And Damn I looked good in it too.
When I got home, I went to work on the Positive Scott Ritual,,, aka Pippi Longstocking Ritual #1
After clearing space, I used my old CHANGE THE UNIVERSE pylons to cement the entrance into an Alternate reality. By the time I was ready to go out I was glowing in Self Confidence and the Power of NOW I had forgotten and layed aside for sometime.
I went off to see what would happen.
When I walked into the EAGLE,,, local mans club, heads literally turned. I crushed the rise of my EGO and centered myself quickly so as not to loose grounding. Everyone who looked at me, I smiled and said hello to and the effect was stupendous to say the least. In one hour I think I spoke to more new faces than I had in years. It still was semi difficult not to return to the "wallflower" I am used to being, but the men just kept coming over and talking and by hours end at least 7 men had asked me out and wanted my phone number. I smiled politely and didn't give in yet. Two men who kept the flow going asked me if I wanted to follow them to another bar, I really was ready to go,,, with my Ritual a success,, and not really needing a man in my bed that night to confirm my change, but agreed.
The other bar is where I go to do Karaoke and is more 'friendly' place to be and when I arrived, again heads turned to me when I entered. I got a drink since I really had not had one yet that night and talked to the bartender for a moment and my friend who works as the DJ. The two new friends I had made where already there and waved me over when I saw them. We chatted and the cutest guy was very friendly and was hitting on me a good bit, then they let me know they were boyfriends,,, not just friends,, which was ok,,, but I don't do groups so I let them know politely, and as we were talking a group of Latino men came in from the patio and there was Adrian.

Adrian and I had dated over two years ago,,, when I was plowing through getting over Giovanni, and we just never really made any effort to see each other. I had thought of him often, as he lived near my best friends house and I had to pass his apartment to get to Franks.
He looked at me, and I thought maybe he didn't remember who I was, and at the time we had met two years ago,, his English was nil. So CYCLES CYCLES CYCLES.
Needless to say, Adrian and I 'hooked' up again. It has been a very very Nice two weeks.
I still have to work on my PIPPI LONGSTOCKING outlook,, but I am making progress. Adrian dotes on me and has been very attentive,,, and so it has been nice.
He knows that I am still ''getting over'' Michael and for once I am in NO HURRY to consumate anything to fast. But life again has thrown me a curve ball,,,, and damn what a handsome one it has thrown me!!!

So, I am still working on myself,,
Work in Progress as they say,
and am in a good frame of mind. I haven't worn the Lime Green shirt again,,
It is going to be my 'special' shirt so to speak and I am saving it for my next transformational stepping out.

HOPE EVERYONE IS WELL
Thanks for all the encouragement and support,, I love you all.

Scott