
Life is Funny, and Death for most of us is a sad event. Yesterday morning the Love of my Mothers Life Passed Over into the Great Mystery of Death. The whole week before seemed to bode signs for me of impending passing the strangest of all was Thursday night. For some reason I was called to go outside around 2:00 in the morning, I didn't know why so just stood at the edge of my porch and listened to the sounds of the night which were soft and somber. I heard a tinkling sound in the backyard and went to investigate the source which began to move around the peremiter of my Sacred Circle area. The tinkling turned into what I can only describe as the sound of bells or chains and it was circling the yard over and over. Then what I saw shocked even me, someone used the strange and unusual, and being that I work with animals I know a bit about wildlife.
Circling the yard was the BIGGEST and I mean BIGGEST BLACK DOG I have ever seen in my whole life. Cerberus had come to show himself to me and I will admit that it scared the total shit out of me. I know all of the local dogs who roam once in a while around the neighborhood because it has been a mission of late to find the owners to cuss out for letting their dogs loose to crap in my yard. This Beast DOES NOT BELONG to ANYONE around here I am sure, with no embelishment at all I can safely say this beast was the size of a small pony. I immediately started going around my yard banishing it from the premise, I even screamed "Git" at the top of my lungs a few times trying to hold back tears that I had no idea were they were coming from at all at the time. He circled my house and then my neighbors house before coming back toward my circle. Then with the sound of tinkling chains vanished without a trace. I was shocked and totally shaken to the bone. I tried to rationalize the event, but in my heart knew that it meant a Death was approaching. I thought that since my neighbor Dave didn't look to well the last I saw him, and having circled their house it was for him. I never suspected that Jack, the love of my mothers life would die in three days. I didn't tell anyone about this event but held it to myself hoping to be wrong. Sunday morning proved me wrong.
Saturday I had worked on the yard and Sacred Circle area pictured above, cleaning and cutting limbs off of the dead trees. I trimmed a lavender bush back and brought some boughs inside to mix with the flowers that Jack had given to me last Friday when I visited him at his office. A florist owes him money and brings dozens of roses and different flowers each week which in turn Jack gave to my mother. She always had fresh flowers in the house since her and Jack got together 15 years ago. I mixed the lavender with the flowers and thought how long they had lived, and even today look fresh cut. It was the last time I saw Jack alive.
Yesterday, as my Mother and I held each other and cried all day long she remarked on all the wonderful things about him. She said that he had taught her how to live and appreciate life like no one before in her life. I told her to remember what I used to call her house before she was with Jack, I called it the Mausoleum because she kept it so dark, cold and she always stayed inside,, most of the time sleeping on the couch or floor (for her back) alone and depressed because of my older sisters Father W.G. is a twisted soul bent on breaking peoples spirit, which he almost succeded with my Mother. Then one day, like a fairy tale really Jack literally appeared at her door and asked if he could take her out to dinner. The rest is history and a love story that we all should be so lucky to experience, they never once had cross words. He never put her down, or said anything but uplifting words. EVERYDAY he brought her flowers or some small gift, or a big gift, new clothes and even gave her two Caddilacs !!! Now that is a MAN.
He gave me peace of mind that my mother was always taken care of and that I had little to do or worry about while he was around. He became a REAL FATHER to me, and many times I told him I wished he had been my dad.
So, I will be planting some Hibiscus, his favorite flower, this year in my Sacred area to always remind me of him and his love.
And I am also planting things to remind me of others, and their Animal Companions too, so my Dear Blogging Friends........
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FLOWER???
If you comment, please tell me your favorite flower or tree/bush so that I can plant something to make me think of you here in 3D land when I am away from the computer. I have gained so much from each of my Blog Circle of friends, hell you all feel like family really, and I want to have something to smell, touch, and sit near in abscence of human contact. Sometimes flowers make such fine substitutes, so please tell me, What flower or plant to plant for YOU!!
So, Be kind to each other and Love like there is NO tomorrow.
I love you all dearly, and again sorry for my absence, but as always I will return soon.
10 comments:
My favorite flower is lilac. They must grow very well in NC.
My condolences to your mom, she sounds like a lucky woman to have had such a wonderful man in her life. Please be there for her, I don't know how old she is, but sometimes mates can't live without each other, so don't let her get feeling that her life is over.
I have a resolution to make my site better, and when I do I will link yours to mine so that people can see how someone can live deeply.
PS - That black dog was a spirit, where I grew up we called it the Snarly Yow. Yes, it always brings bad tidings. If you see it again put up some charms to keep it away.
glad your mom had someone like jack in her life (i think that is now a rare thing). she seems wonderful as well and he was probably glad to have someone like her.
as for favorite flowers - mine are lavender, pansies, tiger lily (different reasons for each). i'm trying to brighten up my "spaces" -- and just got a plant yesterday to remind me of outdoors.
sending you love,
Scott, My heart goes out to you and your mom. Jack sounds like he was a wonderful compainion and addition to both of your lives. I know he will be missed.
As far as flowers, my choice would be a miniture rose bush. My dad passed in Dec. 2004 and his rose bushes were the love of his life. He had close to 50 or more at one time and kept them up until his health no longer allowed it. He finally let all but the ones in the side yard go, we plan on keeping those alive as long as we can in his honor.
Hugs and blessings
Autuumn
Scott, my heartfelt love and condolences to you and your mom. It's such a blessing to have had the time that you both did with a soul as wonderful as Jack.
The big black Dog incident sounds so scary. It's true though, about Death taking form. A similar incident happened to my family a few days before my sister died.
My favorite flower is the calla lily.
Much love to you and your mom, Scott. You are both in my thoughts.
Nova
Dear Sweet wonderful Friends,
Thank you so much for the kind words. My mother was very touched by the fact that people from around the world would take the time to send sympathetic thoughts towards her at this time.
The flowers that everyone mentioned are already planted, and I will be making markers with names to remind me of who loves what, so that I may think of each of you when I am in my favorite place, outdoors in nature. So much is going through my little head at this time, so be patient with whatever I may right next, ,,,, who knows where my swirling mind will take me next. Melancholy feelings are the order of the day, but still I know all is GOOD. I love you all, thanks again. Scott
hi there My Friend!
I am so sorry for your loss, But I feel confident Jack is still with you and your mum. He seems like a wonderful man anyone would be lucky to know. He seems like he truly understood the most important things in life - how to keep his loved ones happy.
As for what flower I prefer - I love flowers!! In all forms or shapes, but I have two favorites: Tulips (for their wonderful colors) and very fitting here: Forgetmenots (not sure how it's spelled..) they are so sweet and tiny with the most beautiful sky blue color. I've had those as favorites for as long as I can remember.
Dear friend, I am sorry for your loss. Jack must have been an amazing person.
Take care Scott, both of you..
Big hug!
DA
PS. I like flowers in general but am sometimes touched by the power and strenght of weed. You don't have to plant that for me. It will appear anyway, trust me :-)
My condolences to your mother and to you.
You are so right, my dear friend. Life is so fragile and transatory, as is the human mind and body.
It is indeed an important lesson that one should be kind to one another, and embrace and try to appreciate each moment of the day.
Thank you for being such a kind person, and good friend to Astro.
lots of hugs.
Scott, I am so sorry to hear of your (and your mom's) loss...Jack sounds like an incredibly kind man who appeared in your lives just when he was needed most... and I think the idea of planting his favorite flower in remembrance of him is a beautiful one.
My childhood home had lots of peony bushes growing along the back fence... if you have room in your garden... they have such sweet faces and they smell divine...
{{{Hugs}}}
Wow Scott. (((((((Big Hugs))))))
I just checked in and I'm so so so sorry to see that something so sad has happened to you and your mom. Losing someone like that.... words fail. He sounds like a person who made things better around him, and the world needs those people!!! It feels so weird when they leave, like "Wait, not THAT one!" But I'm sure you'll see him again.
I'm so sorry for your loss. Please tell your mom too.
That dog story was cool. I love how you aren't afraid to be in touch with the mysterious weird side of life.
Fav flower: Foxglove. The big tall purple kind with freckles.
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