Take me back on a Boat on a River

As some of you may have noticed, I have been on a retro Music kick lately,, putting music up here on my blog. This post is dedicated to Lil Sparrow, with this First song especially for him. The music ,I hope you all will take the time to listen to, for a number of reasons. It is in part because I feel that a lot of times music can say what words alone are not always able to convey. Also, it gives an eye into who you really are dealing with here on this blog, as music is a big part of my life,, even though I don't have a musical talent per se, except I am a Karaoke whore... I love to sing with a drink in my hand at the queer bar.
The one bar I go to that does karaoke on Tuesdays and Sundays is called the Woodshed, a real fag,, hole in the wall bar,,, but full of awesome men who really have some talent when it comes to singing a tune. I really think they need to do an American Queer Idol at our local bar as there really are some talented singers from the backwoods of Carolina. I don't get out that much to socialize, and being that ,,, believe it or not,,, I have a shy streak,, I still like to get up and sing a song or two once in awhile. It releases tension built up over the weeks of spending too much time alone, and I can release emotions that are pent up while I sing (off key sometimes) and have a drink or two.

Lately, some songs have been coming up from the past,, and I mean way back,,, 1980's or so that I grew up with, as a teenager and into my twenties. What you are listening to now,, if you have your volume on, is Styx,, one of my favorite bands from my Redneck days. Yes, Virginia, and Dorothy there is such a thing as a RedNeck Homosexual,,,,, i.e. ME. Growing up both as a Redneck and a homosexual puts one in a position that is like walking a highwire or fence covered in bobwire. A real balancing act was called for as a teenager,, smoking weed, wearing jeans and black t-shirts while out with friends who were Bikers, lintHeads, Potheads, and general rednecks of the south. It was a wonderful place to 'come out' as a young gay man. Luckily I was able to maneuver though the many worlds that were presented to me as a teen,, the Preps, Jocks, Thugs, Hoods, Heads, and so forth. Somehow or another I was able to walk the fence and do as a shaman does and have one foot in both worlds depending on the time and place I was at the moment.
This music was from the last days of my high school years, and actually one of the songs is the song that was picked as our graduating classes theme song,,,,BORROWED TIME,, and I was the inspiration for it,,
I used to walk down the hall with a boombox playing this song over and over again the year I graduated High school,,, I created a meme so to speak and ingrained this tune in the minds of my fellow classmates because it meant alot to me. BORROWED TIME,, so apt for my time changing of the universes that I practice magickally.
This became the song for our class,, the class of 1980,,, and in the song it even mentions the '80s so it was very appropriate. I was at the time surprized that the 'ruling' elite listened to me and voted it the 'class song' I could have cared less at the time, but now it is funny and sorta symbolic, along with all the other Styx songs that I loved at that time,,, and still today. I know that you all don't have the time to listen,, but each song that is in this weeks list playing today is very significant for me, as they represent songs that GREW me,,, they were there when nothing else was, at times of deep loneliness and questing times of growth. They saw me through some very rough times, and today, I listened to them for the first time in years and realized how much they really symbolized so much about my Soul. They speak SCOTT.
I remember the first time I saw Styx in concert and how I got tossed out of the concert and how I jump through a backdoor past about 10 policemen to get back into the concert. I jumped over a barracade and dived into the crowd and fell to my hands and knees and crawled until I was way in the middle of a mass of people screaming and yelling at the top of their lungs,,, The good ol' days when a concert was a concert and you weren't sitting like drones in chairs you were mashed togehter down by the stage feeling the sweat of the band dripping on you ,,, smoking a joint, laughing and singing along with them. Ah! to be a teenager again,,, youth is wasted on the young,,, Now I understand that saying.
The second song that I have in this list is very representative of me, A Man in the Wilderness. It really shocked me when I heard it for the first time in so many years. I have to admit that it really hit me like a sack of bricks. This song that I used to play over and over again as I struggled for meaning with my first love, and with my very unconventional outlook on the world as a teen. I am surprized that today it still fits me very much. I am still A MAN IN THE WILDERNESS. I learned to "Draw Energy" to many of these songs, using them as vehicles of transportation to a place where I could summon energy to make 'the next step' of transformation that needed to be made in those early years. I honed my skill with working energy with this music, and today it is very interesting listening to the songs that formed the mindset that has made me who I am today. It was more than just a song, it was a method to tap into the energy of the universe, I learned much about energy work during those years, crying alone singing my guts out to some of these songs. The pure emotion itself was enough to create a vortex of energy that has lasted well over 25 years or so.. Pretty potent stuff really. The music is very different from what we listen to today, but listening to it again has done a recalibration of some sort on me. Sort of like a 'reTuning' that takes a beginning tone and follows up with a tone that finishes what was started at the beginning of a concerto. Maybe that doesn't make alot of sense to many of you, but It is significant because of the syncronicity of finding this music again after all these years and it still having such deep meaning .
So, If you have the time listen awhile,, each song means something very special,, and the energy is something that could be ReSummoned to create something totally new and wonderful,,,
At least that is my perspective today,, tomorrow maybe a New Tune will hit me, but for now..

Take me back on a Boat on a River.