Hello Everyone,
As most of you can tell I have been busy in 3D land. Work forced me to accept the 'timetable' of regular folk and I now get up at 5 or 6am instead of going to bed at that time. The house has seen a number of changes with the new roomies and I still am adjusting to the fact of having two men living here,, who are not gay? and the fact that Men are Lazy,, at least these two. Don't know how you straight women have put up with it for so long, I mean Damn!!! I didn't take these roomies on to raise and have had to make that clear.
The Job,, I LOVE. I am back working with animals in a hospital that truly cares and have a boss who is laid back, humorous and takes care of his employees,,, I already have gotten my first raise after my one month mark!! It still is not the money I was used to at the corporate job, but it is fulfilling and the schedule allows me alot of freedom,,, which I have been using to work in the yard when off work.
The yard has been a big priority for me lately, so that is the main reason I have not been online. Feb. has been very warm and with the weather like it has been I have taken advantage and got a head start on the garden and weeding out alot of debris around the house. A couple of trees have died and high winds knocked the tops off a few so I have lots of firewood to stack and I am even breaking up the small branches for kindling. The roomies,, remember lazy, are not too interested in helping,, which brings me to this idea for a post.
Authenticity.
Being Authentic has become paramount in my mind lately, Be real in other words. And Pagans are/or can be just as much hypocrites as anyone. Personally, I LIVE MY BELIEFS, I don't like just saying I am this or that, I like to say, I HAVE DONE, or am DOING. and with pagans,, I just want to weep sometimes.
For me, being a Magickally oriented person who calls himself Pagan means this: I respect the Earth in All she offers me and I get out and put my hands in the dirt once in awhile to connect with her, I believe that my yardwork is part of my religion. Yes, raking, weeding the garden, chopping deadwood, plowing the ground are all religious experiences for me. I am praying when I have my hands in the Good Mother Earth, singing worship songs while I plant the vegetables and flowers in my yard. When I prune the trees and shrubs I recognize my own life and how it needed to be pruned of dead limbs and cut back so that it would grow more abundantly. I have learned that you can have lots of flowers and blooms but NO FRUIT if done incorrectly, so I take care to make sure that I am promoting Fruits of my labors, all the while LIVING MY RELIGION.
Living a magickal life is more than just going to MeetUps and hanging at the coffee house with other 'pagans' it is putting ritual into action so that it feeds my life instead of devouring it. With this lesson ,, I cut back on my OnLine Time at the computer. It was consuming way too much of my life, and not that I didn't get alot out of it,, I HAVE, and Each of you out there in my Circle of Friends have ADDED to my life so MUCH. So I am trying to find the Balance point. The place where I can communicate with those whom I love in BLOGLAND and at the same time, live a more full enriching life in the 3D world we collectively call 'the Real World'.
I have been writing alot more by hand instead of sitting at a computer. And have gotten back to reading more also, which I had put on a back burner for so long. I am reading the Classics of the Ancient world at the moment: right now; TACITUS ANNALS. It is giving me a fresh look at my own philosophy and where it has came from historically. I just finished some Greek Tragedies and PROMETHEUS BOUND was very enlightening for me,, will have to post a blog just on it.
My personal group of friends who are in a 'working' circle called "DEEP MAGICK" are testing ourselves by pushing our Magickal Limits. We held a ritual last full moon that called on the whole group to create an empowering rite that had to have been one of the most powerful workings of magick I have ever experienced. The Transformations are still coming.
With that I recognize that I have Stepped back into my own Power and by doing so I have made it clear to myself that being Authentic is paramount to everything I do. I have made a vow with myself to be Brutally Honest to myself, and to dig out any lies or deciets that I have made for myself in return for Authentic SelfHood. The Job at the Veterinary Clinic was one part of this Whole, funny how the little synchronicities work,,, (See post on Crystal the dog for insight)
The roommates are teaching me how to deal with dumb white straight men,,, joking..... but they are lazy as hell and I don't know how you Women put up with it the way you do?????
My focus lately,,, THE LAND.
Call me a tree hugger, a environmental Nut or what ever you wish, but I LOVE MOTHER EARTH and ALL SHE FREELY GIVES.
So, I am going now to sit under my trees (many I planted when I first moved here) and look at my perennial plants that are starting to bloom and rise above the ground. I will smell the air, and take in the sky above as I feel the earth in my hands while planting some,,,, broccoli and flowers today before going to work.
So, I miss everyone, and will make time this week to visit everyone whom I have not communicated with in a long while. I think of you all very often as I am out in the yard. You all have given this NEW ME,,, Too ME!! So in many ways, the Present Scott was a gift to me by my interactions with everyone here in BlogLand.
We are all Connected in this wonderful Web of LIFE and I want to thank you all for being such wonderful parts of the WHOLE.