This week has been TRANSFORMING!!!
Appropriate one day before I go to the mountains to the TRANSFORMUS festival Burn.
Monday, I had to break my neighbors door down, after ripping the garage door off the house, to try and keep my neighbor alive until EMS got there. I was out in my garage and her neice came over and asked if I would help her cause Cathy was not answering the phone when her husband called home to check on her. Cathy has multiple problems caused by diabetes/highblood pressure and other things. We looked in the windows hollering for her, and then saw her on the floor. I somehow became Super-Homo and raced around to the front of the house, ripped the garage door up and open and busted the door down to get inside. She was cold as an ice-cube, eyes vacant and blood/vomit drooling out of her mouth. Her Neice, preganant couldn't stand the site,, thinking she was dead and ran out of the house,, me screaming for her to call 911.
I couldn't feel a pulse, or heartbeat and no breathing was noticable. I am crying/screaming for God to help me and at Cathy, telling her,, NO WAY! You can't die now, you come back right now. Her teeth were clinched shut and eyes vacantly staring up to the ceiling. She was dead? So, I start massaging her chest, and get a spoon to try and pry her mouth open so I could clean out the crap and start CPR. I could not get her teeth to budge and she still was not breathing, so I roll her over (she is over 200lbs) to slap her back a few times as I tried to figure what to do. She started to breath some, all gurgling like, it was so horrible, EMS finally was on the phone and the neice ran in handed me the phone and ran back out of the house. They instructed me as to what to do until the ambulance arrived, which seems so long when things like this happen. She started breathing, but I still could not get her mouth open, so all I could do was to massage her chest and hold her neck back and straight to allow more air flow. The EMS arrived and took over, they got her stable and took her to the hospital, She is ALIVE!!!
This hit me hard, life is so short, so LIVE IT!
Strangely, Jay, her husband told me that as he was rushing home, a friend of Cathys' called him, she said, " Jay, something is wrong with Cathy, I keep hearing someone say "GOD HELP ME!", which of course was what I was screaming at Cathy the whole time she was wondering down the tunnel towards the light!! Psychic phenomenon exists, I don't care what anyone says. That lady heard me somehow, over 50 miles away!! Cathy is now recuperating and doing fine, Thank you Goddess and God!
The next day, I spend with MY Mother, sorta a preBirthday for me, since I will not be home this year,,,,(will be at TRaNsForMUS!!)
I will be 43 tommorrow, and mom finally tells me (what I knew all along,) that WG was not my father.. YEAH!!! Party at my LIFE!! So, I have had two very life changing events back to back the week of my Birthday, It has given me a New Lease on life. Transformed me, washed a lot of crap off of my soul and made me something New!
So, I may rename myself this weekend! To symbolize the New Me. I feel that the old depressions that were kicking my butt are gone, I am the CREATOR of my REALITY! and Now I want to be fully in the Eternal NOW of each Moment. I savor everything right now!
A long time ago, this guy I met during a very depressing time kept telling me,,, It is ALL GOOD!
I understand that now.
It IS ALL GOOD!
ENJOY THIS LIFE, it is too short and precious to be depressed, and there are reasons for crazy things like loosing jobs etc that we might not understand for a while. If I had not lost my job last year, and had this crazy year all would be different. If I had found a job prior to Monday. I would not have been home to be there for my neighbor.
Thank you God/dess for me NOT finding a job!!!!
It is ALL so GOOD!!!!!
PAX
Scott